Crossroad of life

I am at a crossroad in my life. I am standing infront of a fork in the road. One leads to the promising unknown and the other leads back to the safety of my old life. I want to take the road unknown. I want to run down the road and away from here. Here is not working anymore. I am ready for a change and better oppurtunities. I ache inside to move on. I want to go NOW. I have to wait because I have things to settle before I can go. I can't settle them fast enough. I am even willing to call it a loss just so I can go. I am in my thirties and I have changed so much in the past 5 years and it has been great and this is just more of the same personal growth. I glow with excitement and I long for the adventures to come. I want to go, skipping down that path and I don't want to look back with regret. If I don't hurry now, it might be to late.

I am feeling snarky!!

Called to the Carpet.

We were called to the carpet tonight. Shit or get off the pot was presented. My wonderfull In-Laws have offered to front the cost of the repairs on the house so we can sell it and get the hell out of Dodge.
I am excited and absolutly terrified. If i take the offer, I have to sell the house. No matter where I move to.

I am excited.. a whole new life is before us if we have the courage to sieze it. It is terrifying. The unknown is scary and lonely. I laid in bed tonight and tried to imagine living in another house, in another state and I tried to imagine what it would look like and what first snow might be for us or the budding of spring. I couldn't conjour it up... it was foriegn to me. These were experiences I have never had ( in my adult memory ) and it wasn't coming to me.

We want so bad to get out of debt. Out of debt from everyone. No mortgage, or one so small it is not worth mentioning. No debt to family. A new car.. out right paid for. We can do all that, if we sell this home and move where real estate is 3/4 less than here. In Georgia, we can buy a gorgeous, huge, home for under $150,000. That is comepletely unheard of here. We want to be ahead of the money game. We want to have nice things and vacations and a life. We can't have it here. Not many people can.

I am greatfull for their offer and we took it. It is what is best for the family.

Gettin out of Florida

I want out of this swamp state. I have been here 28 years. I am tired of it. I want to live some place else. I would love to see season changes. I want to celebrate Christmas in something other than a bathing suit. It is so hot and I am so sick of 9 months of A/C and sweating. Hurricanes are getting old, fast.
It is getting way to expensive to live here and I am tired of not having any left over money.

Georgia looks good. A compromise for the my hubby. Not to cold, very little snow. Less chance of being a bullseye on the hurricane map. The housing is HALF the cost of here. The area is interesting and the city is only an hour away. The school oppurtunities are greater and the entertainment more diverse.

Now, I just need the courage to do it. This place here in Florida is all I know. It is familiar and with familiarity comes comfort no matter how much you dislike it. The unknown is scary. I need the courage to walk away from here and take my family to someplace new and exciting.