Crap, I am just a wreck.
I am so messed up. I am so filled with grief, I can't even see straight. I am falling into depression.. despite my magic Prozac. Todd was so cute, he wanted to make sure I wasn't gonna go Andrea Yates on him and drown the kids. Hahaha. He was trying to make me laugh. I wish they WERE in school now. Then I could come home and hide every day. I just sent a letter to my boss the Psychologist. He aught to just loved reading my emotions. :) He will, he is so good to me. He won't let me work. I wanted to come back this week, but he said no. Week three is the worst, he said. Looks like he was right. Mom's cremains at are the funeral home. I am sending Todd for them. I don't want to see them or touch them. I want him to hide them where I won't find them. Then he can give them to my brother. I can't bear it. I can barely bear any of this. I need one more paper for the lawyer and then I can start the Probate process. I am putting that off too. I don't want to face anymore. I have to work on Mom's house. I don't want to do that too.
I just want to crawl into bed and stay there untill it all goes away. Problem is, it won't go away. Not untill I take care of it.
I just want to crawl into bed and stay there untill it all goes away. Problem is, it won't go away. Not untill I take care of it.
posted by Magpie at 4:38 PM
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Oh Laurie, I wish I could help you get through this somehow. Please know I'm praying for you. I don't see how you can possibly handle the grief of losing your mother and your first year of homeschooling all at once. Maybe if you temporarily put the boys back in school just for a few weeks while you take care of all the legalities that won't go away? Just a thought. I wish I was close enough to give you a big hug :(
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