We will be homeschooling this year
That was such a tough decision, even tougher for my husband. However, in the end, he understands and agrees with the reasons and stands with me to educate our children at home. He is very worried that I will lose focus and won't stick with it, which is better than worrying about my ability to teach the kids.
I am excited. I am scared. One moment, I am calm and confident and the next moment, I am paniced and doubtfull. It doesn't help that I have virtually no support among my circle. They all think I have gone off the deep end. I probably have. Who would have ever said, that Laurie would CHOOSE to spend 24 hours a day with her kids? No one, EVER, would have thunk it even. NEVER. Yet, here I am, putting aside my selfishness to keep my son from the horrible experience of Middle School.
I am so scared. I don't want to mess this up. My mind is reeling with all the educational possibilities. So much to teach these boys. What if I miss something?
What if I can't find a choir and art lessons for Todd. I don't want his talent to waste away. What if Nathan doesn't get enough socialization. He is such a people person. I don't want to get isolated here.
Only, I have to remember that the whole world is their classroom now. The whole world is open to them to explore and use. I think I will see if we can make our own shirts... maybe they could say that on the back. "The whole world is my classroom" and on the front, in small letters over the left breast..."Homeschooler"
I will probably feel more confident as I explore the community and what it has to offer. I will probably feel more confident if I can find the homeschool group here in the county. I will probably feel more confident if I can drag my arse to church and get my kids in a youth group. I will probably feel more confident once we start school in August.
I hope the Lord is behind me on this. I think he is, because he softened my husband's heart on the subject. I think he is because my neighbor laid hands and prayed with me and I walked away feeling tingly and it gave me the courage to tell my Mom and she didn't freak out as bad as I thought she would. I hope the Lord is with me on this, because he is gonna need to carry me for awhile.
I wish my mind would quit. It is so noisy in there. Ideas and thoughts and to do's are just running rampant. Then the fears tromp through and they make an even bigger mess. This whole undertaking is consuming me. This is probably what happens during a teacher's first year. I have read about that. That the first year is consuming and life as you knew it, is over.
If all goes well, my children will benefit from a better and more relaxed education. They will have more positive peer interactions and that will build their self-esteem and confidence. I hope it will improve their behaviour, as well.
If all goes well, I will learn to be more cheduled and constructive. That I will be more patient and less critical of my children. I hope it will improve my relationship with them.
okay, off to bed. Maybe my head will be quiet now.
I am excited. I am scared. One moment, I am calm and confident and the next moment, I am paniced and doubtfull. It doesn't help that I have virtually no support among my circle. They all think I have gone off the deep end. I probably have. Who would have ever said, that Laurie would CHOOSE to spend 24 hours a day with her kids? No one, EVER, would have thunk it even. NEVER. Yet, here I am, putting aside my selfishness to keep my son from the horrible experience of Middle School.
I am so scared. I don't want to mess this up. My mind is reeling with all the educational possibilities. So much to teach these boys. What if I miss something?
What if I can't find a choir and art lessons for Todd. I don't want his talent to waste away. What if Nathan doesn't get enough socialization. He is such a people person. I don't want to get isolated here.
Only, I have to remember that the whole world is their classroom now. The whole world is open to them to explore and use. I think I will see if we can make our own shirts... maybe they could say that on the back. "The whole world is my classroom" and on the front, in small letters over the left breast..."Homeschooler"
I will probably feel more confident as I explore the community and what it has to offer. I will probably feel more confident if I can find the homeschool group here in the county. I will probably feel more confident if I can drag my arse to church and get my kids in a youth group. I will probably feel more confident once we start school in August.
I hope the Lord is behind me on this. I think he is, because he softened my husband's heart on the subject. I think he is because my neighbor laid hands and prayed with me and I walked away feeling tingly and it gave me the courage to tell my Mom and she didn't freak out as bad as I thought she would. I hope the Lord is with me on this, because he is gonna need to carry me for awhile.
I wish my mind would quit. It is so noisy in there. Ideas and thoughts and to do's are just running rampant. Then the fears tromp through and they make an even bigger mess. This whole undertaking is consuming me. This is probably what happens during a teacher's first year. I have read about that. That the first year is consuming and life as you knew it, is over.
If all goes well, my children will benefit from a better and more relaxed education. They will have more positive peer interactions and that will build their self-esteem and confidence. I hope it will improve their behaviour, as well.
If all goes well, I will learn to be more cheduled and constructive. That I will be more patient and less critical of my children. I hope it will improve my relationship with them.
okay, off to bed. Maybe my head will be quiet now.
posted by Magpie at 9:42 PM
1 Comments:
I admire your decision to do this. I know it will be difficult, but you have very valid reasons for homeschooling, and where there's a will there's a way!! Maybe Michele can help you get started, maybe ya'll could even do some lessons, field trips, etc. together. Are there any homeschooling support groups nearby? If so you would probably gain a lot from one. It's gotta be rough when your family/friends don't support your decision (I got all kinds of crap from people when I was considering homeschooling) but you have to remember: your kids are more important than anyone's opinion. You know better than anyone else in the world what is best for YOUR kids. Those people will have their say and it might hurt your feelings. It might make you mad. But you keep doing what is best for your kids.
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