Set backs, detours and closed roads

I have a migraine, so I am not in the best mood. I am also in a bad mood because my dreams are slipping away. Where I thought the Lord was showing me the way to Georgia, it abruptly became clear that it is a no go. My Mother is terminally and physically ill. My Grandmother is on borrowed time. I can't leave untill those two situations resolve themselves. THEN, the housing market has really, really crashed here. The housing market has a glut of homes and it has turned into a buyers market, not a sellers. That in turn makes prices fall in a big way. Interest rates are up to 8%, so that hurts buyers. Rental fees are going up, because people are priced out of homes, but still need a place to live. Then to top it all off, the local builder here is offereing a brand new home with the lot for $199,900. A 3/2 brand new home with sprinklers and hurricane shutters for the same amount I MIGHT be able to sell this old wood frame home for. I am SCREWED. I can sell the house, but only for way less than we planned and then we would have to rent for probably longer than we had planned because of my Matriarchs health and that will suck up alot of the money because rentals have done up. I end up in Georgia with very little money left. Not how we wanted it to be.

The alternative is becoming clear and I don't like it. We put just about $7,000 of debt into the house to sell it..and now we are stuck with it. If we don't sell, we can't get a new car. The one I own is just about to DIE. Our dental work is extensive and won't get done. I spend more years in this forsaken state and continue to pay through the nose to insure my home. I put off college too, so I could be available to my Mom. But, I probably will have to get another night job to pay off the debt to my Father In Law.

I know God has a plan and all that. I am trying to go with it, but just like a child.. I need to have the tantrum because I am NOT GETTING MY OWN WAY.


If I leave my pity party and get off my high horse... maybe I could see my blessings again and appreciate what I have instead of wanting what I can't get.