Time just keeps marching on

and it is dragging me with it. Everyday is getting a little bit easier, but then again... I haven't been back to the house in a few days. I am avoiding it. I miss my Mom so much. I cry so easily. I want to call her and talk to her. I keep reliving our last conversations and moments and then the time when I found her. It hurts. This hurt is something I have never felt and I don't like it.

I must be coming out of my slump, though. Thanks to my Prozac. Whoever invented that needs to be sainted! Anyway, I am coming out of my slump. Yesterday, I finally go the ambition to shovel out the boys' bedroom. That took a long time.

Then I moved on to putting the school room together. I am decorating the walls and getting ready for the kitchen table to get moved in. Still have more work to do in there, but it is taking shape! I am still panicking about homeschooling. I think I may have lost my mind! LOL Yet, last night I sat down with those tourist magazine coupon booklets that you pick up at area restaurants. I cut out all the interesting places that we can do field trips with and I cut out coupons to go with it. One trip that I can't wait to do is the Babcock Ranch. Anyway, now we are trying to come up with a name for our homeschool. Our motto is "The whole world is our classroom". We need a name though. I also have to set down and write up a lesson plan for the first week. Some kind of plan to follow. Some kind of structure! I can't just willy nilly this. When I am done writing this, I am going to sign them up for Art and Music classes in the community. I also have to figure out when service is at the church I am considering and then find out what all they offer to the kids. So much to do. So little ambition.